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It was only a page of an old book of poems, and could not possibly be relevant to anything of importance, yet there it laid upon the Shadow Priestess’ desk. Its stanzas bored holes into the her skull and stood out in their defiance; the words rang all too true. There was a blank parchment unfurled next to this compendium, upon which ink formed dark splotches as it dripped from the quill held in unmoving, manicured fingers. After what seemed like a century, that porcelain hand dipped and scratched a single word into the top of that parchment.

Love.

Azriah stared at that one word, fel-fire eyes widened beneath the weight of it, and choked back a curse. Irritability flared her nostrils and drew a sigh from her lungs. At last, the point of her quill touched the parchment again– a herald of the impending torrent of emotion.

What is not common knowledge is that love, in its terrible sovereignty, is not meant for everyone. Its feather-light touch knows barriers and boundaries, and it will forever taunt even the most cursed of souls for its own pleasure. There is no such thing as a fairy tale ending; it simply does not happen in that manner. This world has no room for such foolish notions, and the belief in it must be purged, lest we find ourselves in the claws of our own stupidity when it inevitably fails. It is doomed to fail, over and over again for myself. I was blessed with a chance and now his blood is on my hands, hands that have rejected and eluded the clutches of many. Perhaps this is the price for my sins. If I am to be the woman that I am, there will be no company for my heart, for I should not have one. I was reminded of its existence by the person I thought least likely to hold such power over me, but is that not the way the damnable emotion always is? The spark of Light in me gained power and flickered in the deepness of my soul. It vied for a chance to shine through to the forefront of my existence. Perhaps it did, for a few moments, and perhaps a foolish part of me even nurtured it for a short while. I did not know what I was doing, but now I have learned my lesson. That spark must be extinguished, for it does nothing but cause pain. In my life I have loved and I have lost, and my soul is damned to the darkest abyss for the things that I have done. I cannot long for something that was never meant to be mine.

For every rivulet of hope a thousand tonnes of force behind the severity of the truth must be drilled into my mind:

There is no love, and every damned incarnation of it is just a reminder of how weak our spirits truly are.


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Q: What is your fondest childhood memory?
A: It is little more than a vision from the earliest days of my existence, but it has stuck with me through out the many centuries of my life. This particular memory exists only as the sensation of mother’s burnished copper tresses tickling, as she bent to press a feathery kiss to my forehead.

Q: In one word, describe yourself.
A: Ethereal.

Q: What word would others use?
A: Witch.

Q: Quickly! You’re dying and only have time for one last activity! What do you do?
A: Question my very existence, reflect upon what could have been, and await the moment of ascendance.

Q: Favorite food? This question is mandatory.
A: Heaven Peach.

Q: Least favorite thing in the world?
A: Worgen.

Q: You’re the Emperor/Empress of Azeroth! What is your first decree?
A: My sovereignty would be handled in an ultimate dictatorial fashion. Two social castes – Nobility and Knaves, with a religion that centers my authority as the figurehead.

Q: Describe your dream man/woman/entity.
A: One who can embrace me as I am, who will not seek to change me.

Q: You’ve discovered a lost Gnomish technology that allows you to switch lives with whomever you please for a day. Who do you turn into?
A: If it permitted the use of time travel, I would say the Sun King himself.

Q: You can ask whomever you wish whatever question you choose. Who do you ask and what do you ask them?
A: Implying that I do not act according to my whims to begin with?

Q: You’ve done something extraordinary and you’ve gained a title for it! How are you known throughout the world?
A: I have several titles already, but my favored one among the rest of the Horde is The Astral Walker, for my role as an Inquisitor.

Q: You can go back in time and change one thing you’ve done/said. What do you change?
A: No comment.

Q: What is one thing you can’t live without?
A: The Void.

Q: Best advice you’ve ever been given?
A: An aunt said this to me once, “To find the solution, you must remove yourself from the equation.”

Q: Best advice you could ever give?
A: Precisely the same thing.

Q: You find a thousand gold lying on the ground in a marked pouch. There is a return address on it, but no one is around. What do you do?
A: Deposit it in my vault.

Q: You wake up one day to find yourself in prison! What did you do?
A: A proper lady never admits to dark deeds.

Q: Oh no! You’re naked in the hold of a ship bound for Booty Bay! How did you end up there?!
A: Likely a certain Captain.

Q: What would you say is your spirit animal or totem?
A: Some sort of feline, or so I have been told.

Q: Biggest fear?
A: Exorcism from the shadows.

Q: Scariest moment of your life?
A: The latter decades of my marriage.

Q: Do you have a secret talent/ability that people would be surprised to know about?
A: I have an aptitude for tailoring.

Q: You can say one thing to one person from your past. Whom do you speak to, and what do you say?
A: Father, I have failed you.

Q: What is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done?
A: Love.

Q: If you could live anywhere in Azeroth or Outland, where would it be?
A: The Silvermoon City of old– before the Third War.

Q: If you could give any one gift to any one person, what would it be, and to whom?
A: Cardre is the only person worthy of my gifts, and it would likely be all the fabrics and ingots in the world so she might craft the costume of her dreams.

Q: If that person could give any gift to you, what do you think it would be?
A: I expect something of a similar, grand nature.

Q: What would you do if you suddenly lost everything?
A: Gain it back.

Q: What would you say your top priority is?
A: Myself.

Q: A box is lying on the ground before you. What do you think is inside?
A: Its hold on my attention would not last longer than a glance.

Q: You can only save one thing from a fire. What is it?
A: My acolyte’s tome.

Q: You and a loved one are in a situation where only one can come out alive. Do you sacrifice yourself?
A: No.

Q: How do you view the idea of a lifelong commitment to one person?
A: Useful, and evasive. I shan’t have it myself, though I have known its touch once.

Q: Define “true happiness”.
A: A lie.

Q: Do you believe in the saying “things always get worse before they get better”?
A: No. Situations turn on a downward spiral, and continue drifting into darkness.

Q: Is the glass half empty? Or half full?
A: Half-empty.

Q: What is one of your biggest insecurities?
A: Nothing. I have no insecurities.

Q: Pet peeve?
A: Those who speak out of turn.

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